91. Drowning

PANIC

I've lost control!

The mask is slipping
As the tears threaten to spill

This overwhelming feeling rises in my chest
Breaking the barriers I set around it
Trying to contain it

I am drowning in my suppressed screams
Holding back these emotions

These weaknesses

                                        I won't give in!

The foundations and walls begin crumbling around me
And I am left vulnerable
In plain sight

FEAR

Don't see me!

But the bottle is breaking

Like the beer bottle we would throw as children
Flinging it high n the air
And watching it spiral down-

                                 Till it shattered in a million pieces . . .

I cannot let this happen!

But the cracks in the glass betray me
As everything I've held in begins to seep out
And I am swept away by the harsh explosion

        I am drug under . . .

What once was a small stream
Now becomes an ocean that cannot be conquered

                                                            I sink . . .



My air supply is limited

My vision becomes blurred


                                 As I begin drowning in my own emotions that I've dammed for years . . .